We live in the time of medical miracles. It's hard to believe that the botulinum toxin would become so important to me and thousands of other muscular disease sufferers. Botulism is the most deadly toxin on the earth, but it gives me the ability to speak by paralyzing my vocal folds. Among other uses: it eases lines and wrinkles, relieves migraines, bladder issues, muscle spasms, and many other medical issues.
I have Spasmodic Dysphonia, and in a nutshell it makes talking extremely difficult. The muscles in my larynx spasm and that causes my voice to become extremely strangled, thus verbal communication is difficult at best. So, every three months or so I see my E.N.T. and receive a Botox injection, through my neck and into the vocal folds. My shot starts working within a few hours, and by the next day I sound close to my old self. However, shortly after my voice becomes a whisper and I become extremely breathy. This stage lasts a few weeks and comes with an added bonus, of swallowing difficulty. After a few weeks of breathiness my voice is back in business. I guess the saying, no pain - no gain fits my predicament to a tee.
That's why Botox is my new friend, although we have a love- hate relationship. I love that I am able to speak to my family and friends, however I hate that my voice sounds different. It's deeper and it lasts around 3 months before I need another shot. Spasmodic Dysphonia can definitely drive you crazy, sometimes making you want to scream..........but you could only hear me if I had my Botox shot!